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85 degrees and climbing

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 17:53:57 GMT

Holy schnikees it's hot. I'm loving it.

As a side note: whoever thought putting Kirstie Alley back on t.v. was a good idea, should suffer a 12 gauge blast to the face.

Maybe I can bring some of this back with me.

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 18:55:48 GMT

Sunny and 70 degrees. It's supposed to be 45-50 degrees when I get back into Maine. Maybe I can soak enough of this up to change that. I hope so.

Weekend Review

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 20:09:44 GMT

This weekend was pretty kick ass. Friday night I drank brews with Aaron and watched The Magic and the Wizards duke it out on the tube. I wanna go catch a game next time I am down here. Saturday was active.
We started the day out with some Mall Hell. I rocked the Sopranos pinball machine in the arcade though. Then we came back here and changed up so we could go play raquetball with Aarons dad Rick. The two of us played him and he still won. Pathetic, but it was very fun. I could definitley become addicted to that game. Erica checked out the gym and seemed to enjoy it. If I move down here, it would be good for me, get into the exercise thing. Then we came home and chilled for a bit after some much needed showers. We then went to the House of Liu for dinner, it was quite yummy for Schezuan. We were going to go to Ichi Bon, a Japanese steak house, but there was a 2 hour wait, so maybe next time. Then we took Meggie over to Ricks for a sleepover and we headed to the late show of Sin City. I thought it was awesome. The visuals were awesome, the acting was top notch, and I liked the story(s). (I am secretly becoming a Brittany Murphy fan. shhh. What can i say she is hot!) One thing I didn't get was some people laughing at ultra violence, that was not funny, nor do I think it was intended to be funny. There was some of it that was clearly meant to make you laugh, which it did, but.... Sunday, we drove out to Fredrick, Maryland for Dion's (Aarons Uncle) B-day party. We went to Isabellas, which was this high class Tappas (Spanish cuisine) joint. I love going into high class places dressed down. It's funny becuase I probably understand more about the food, than most of the snobs. It was interesting. Basically it's the sort of thing where everyone orders 2-3 appetizer styled dishes, and shares. It's very communal. Which I was diggin' on. Aarons family is great. Not just cause his Gram footed the bill either, which was super nice in itself. They are just very personable and accepting. I mean being the tattooed, pierced freak I am they could be judgmental, but everytime I have been around them I have felt nothing short of being a part of thier family. I wish I could have met his grandfather. The only thing that could have possibly made the experience better would have been a bottle of red wine and a big fat cigar for afterwards. But I am going to make a point of going to a tappas joint again. I could totally envision sitting around the table for hours getting sauced on red, trying all kinds of cuisine, and have alot of spirited dialogue. I am actually into that sort of thing, believe it or not. In the right circumstance/enviroment. Anyhoo that's about it. Heading home on Thursday. This trip has been perfect. Very good for me in many ways.

"Love is my wine and I drink it by the cup."

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 20:04:49 GMT

Laying in the sun, with nothing on but my shorts. Listening to 311 and Rustic Overtones. Enjoying a tasty Bass Ale.
65 feels like 70 without the cold ocean breeze. Just what I needed. Being down here has sure made me miss/appreciate my life and all I have back home though. I am getting to make a pit stop before I get back to the midcoast. I am going to be staying the Friday I get back in Portland with Shane Kinney. Hit the Old Port for some brews. He may have a gig, so I might be catching some comedy mastery as well. As a wise sage I once knew used to say, "Life can be a pretty sweet fruit." I have to whole heartedly agree.

Great night in Va,

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 06:25:21 GMT

I saw an awesome band tonight called Mercy Creek. Check them out at MercyCreek.com

Things from the past

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 17:27:25 GMT

Was snooping around in my midcoast directory. Found some cool things:

My superclub article

My Iron Steed before I crashed it.
Wish I had taken a picture of it after the crash. It was f'd up hardcore.

Anybody need to be absolved of thier sins?

Apparently I do. :)

Oh yeah, and the invite for one of the greatest Keggers of all time.

Isn't technology great?!

Go ahead and snoop around if you want to. There is some cool things in there from my MIS days

Help!

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 21:43:50 GMT

Pat and/or Megan A. check your yahoo e-mail address you have posted on your user info. I need you. Don't worry, it's not in a prison sort of way.

Feelings and emotions

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 22:32:47 GMT

There is a sadness in my heart. It's been a little over 3 weeks and she won't get out my head or my heart. I doubt she'd care even if she knew how I felt. That idea hurts more than anything. Becuase that meant she lied, and what we shared was just made up in my head. The sadness goes away for a while but always comes back. I keep hoping time will take it away, but maybe it won't. If it doesn't, what am I supposed to do? I can be alone for a while, that thought doesn't bother me. What if I remain like this forever though? What if this wall I have put up can't be brought down? It was the highest I have ever been, with a purpose that truly felt like it was handed down from Oh Most High. Part of me knew it couldn't last. Little hints along the way, but that's not what I wanted, so I turned a blind eye. So here I am again wondering what truth is, and wondering if I should trust my feelings ever again. Time will tell I guess. I must keep faith. I know I am different in many ways than I have ever been. I have always wanted to do what's right. I feel now more than ever that I am capable of that. I just don't want to die alone, without that love that felt so real and close to my soul, that I had with her. This is selfish and silly I guess, but it's how I feel. As much as I try not to fear, they creep in, robbing me of time and energy. Maybe this is what I get for all the things I did in ignorance in my past. Oh well. Even if that love is never there again, I'll make the best of my time here. There are some positives of course. I am stone free. I can go anywhere and do anything I want to, without question. Anyway I'll keep moving on. Besides I am never really alone, becuase Jah is beside me always, blessings are my evidence. Grace must be real, becuase I definetly don't deserve any of the great things that happen in my life. Positivity will be my weapon. I am feeling better already.

Babies, bus travel and cheap smokes

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 01:53:22 GMT

Congratulations Hippy and Fallyn on the birth of your daughter. My friends Craig and Melissa also had a beautiful baby girl this last week.

I got down here to Winchester Va 23 hours after I left Rockland. It was quite the experience. I got to see Times Square all lit up at 12:30 in the morning. That was pretty cool. I learned about the hustlers first hand too. I'll expound on that in a later post. Also met a really cool girl on the bus ride from D.C. to Winchester. She's a middle school teacher. Also into B&W photography. I hope to see her again in the future.

I bought a pack of Camel Lights this evening. $2.88

It's supposed to be 70 on Friday, glad I brought shorts.

Sorry I am going to miss you being in Maine, Megan S. I'll catch you next time.

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 18:35:51 GMT

I have been working on singing and playing at the same time. But since I have been playing much longer than trying to sing, there is some disperity. So I have decided that my act will be a mix of spoken word, (yes spoken word since I am white), instrumentals, and improv jamming. Here are two of my spoken word peices:

Title: Reality

I used to be a pessimist known as a realist
Then I realized there is no reality
I mean the concrete is hard and cold
And there is a fire burning in my soul
But after that it's up to you and me
To make life what we want it to be

Title: Snapback

Snapback, crack
Like whiplash
Coming out from within
Doing for Jah
Whatever, whenever I can
Saved by Grace
Surely I am
Put my life in his hands
Ya gotta see it
Through my eyes
He loves you too
Love that will bridge any divide
Bringing a plan better
Than you or I could devise
Seeking a vision
Blowing up hotter than
Nuclear fission
Unending journey
Through this life into the next

1st Post

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 00:48:06 GMT

Well here's the first post of my new journal. Yeah. So things are moving along swimmingly. Finally I am going to travel. It's only 2 weeks. But it's two weeks in a warmer place. I am going to Winchester, Virginia to vist my sister, my neice, brother-in law and his family. I am also going to Virginia Beach for two days, the weekend between my 2 week stay. It should be pretty warm by then. Ahh, fun and sun. Winter makes the trials and tribulations of life wear on me harder. Hopefully this little vacation will help me recharge on positive energy.

So I have the idea for my sleeve. It will take a while to get done, but check it out. I already have the crest of my german ancestors on my moms side. Next I am going get the Thomas crest done underneath it. Then I am going to research 2-3 more on both sides and have them done covering my forearm. Then I am going to have my whole biecep and up onto my shoulder done as a biomech tree, with roots coming down and hanging around the different crests, framing them. All I want for my b-day is gift certificates in whatever amount for extreme images. I have a few other things I want to get done before I do the tree and the other crests. I want to get my existing crest touched up, I want to get the blob that my kanji has turned into covered up, and rich has a kick ass original tribal design down at the shop that I want to put on the side of my calf. After that I am going to start my sleeve.

What else? Good job prospects for when I get back, so we'll see how it pans out.
That's about it.